eeek

Yeah, so needless to say I haven't followed through with this blog like I wanted to. Well, guess what? i haven't followed a raw lifestyle either. I feel that I am at a low right now. Logically and "realistically" I am doing so well! I like my job a lot (I'm a freelancer and loving it), I'm in the throws of early love with my significant other, and I have a great group of friends who I just had a nice weekend getaway with. Things are great and I feel great...in a sense.
Physically I feel huge. I'm still in denial about being that way, but I'm sure the pounds will back that up. As I've said, I still feel sexy and have a great love life, but how I feel in this body is not right. This very second I'm bloated and my joints hurt. My whole body started to ache a while after I stopped doing yoga. I feel like a creakety old house that gets stepped around in every now and then and of course starts creaking louder in certain spots.
I have tried eating more salads and veggies and fruits, but obviously it's not working. And today I have been eating almost nonstop. i have a ravenous hunger all of a sudden and earlier I was craving shrimp. (normally I don't eat shrimp). So I ate overpriced greasy Chinese food with veggies, rice, shrimp, and bean curd. It satisfied but I still feel terribly bloated.
I really hope I can push myself to go raw, at least 90%, no less.
I hope to have a motivational story complete with pictures and things like random "ahhhhs" and "life is so serene and wonderful"...no, really...